Why do they plague me so

Well, its been awhile. Again I am riding that rickety roller coaster of life. My back has recuperated for the most part. I was working in the Access Dept at the homecare place where I had once been a hospice nurse. My position there has been terminated and I was given two weeks of pay to find a job. Which is all fine and good, except now I will be jobless and thus moneyless come Nov 6th unless I find a new job soon. I have sent in all sorts of resumes and filled out applications. Finally got a call for an interview. It is set for Nov 20th. Oy..but at least it is an interview. It is rather sad that I am having so much difficulty finding a job. I am an RN. A nurse, but a lot of places have hiring freezes or do not hire RN's. Silly that. It's rather frustrating. You would think an RN would have no trouble at all finding a job. Have to wait and see. I am so tired of this rocky ride. Wish I could win the lottery, marry a millionaire or something...anything...

Why do they plague me so

Yes, it has been sometime since I have been about on Deviant Art and this is just a spotty and rare moment as that I am still in the process of recuperating from emergency surgery on my back.

Long story short...had a lumbar disc that decided to go from herniation to full blown rupture thusly resulting in the loss of right foot function and weakness of leg....they call it foot drop. Ended up having emergent surgery on Nov 24th and the rest is history from there.

Lately as I recovery another distressing situation has come up. My grandfathers heart and kidneys are failing. He is presently hospitalized but is due to go home soon with hospice care. He is a well loved grandpa and upon passing will be greatly missed.

Life is a roller coaster of up and downs and with the new year things do not seem to be any better than the past four.

I do know one thing. I am tired of this feeling called loneliness. Being single is no fun at all.

Looking for models.

After my photoshoot with Christie, I have decided to do some model seeking to try to help establish a portrait business of sorts. I am looking for models, relatively local (meaning can travel to nearby states to TN). Models can be any age, body type, etc. Beauty comes in all shapes, sizes, etc. Anyhow, if interested please contact me here on deviant art.

Thanks so much in advance

Happy Birthday to Me....

Well as of 1226am EST, June 2, I officially turned 38. What do I have to show for it? A torn rotator cuff (yup that is what turned out to be wrong with my shoulder), one cortisone shot four days prior and more than likely a birthday celebrated alone and working my tail off.

I have worked 65 hours this week and now will be so exhausted I really will not feel like enjoying my birthday at all. Of course, I wasn't looking very forward to it in the first place. It sucks to be my age and single...What more can I say.

So all in all I sing to myself "Happy UnBirthday to me"

Aches and pains and accidental pronedness

Ahh..what a lovely way to spend the evening...I the ER. Yes ladies and gentlemen, the Queen of Tumbles and Falls has had yet another fall. Joy Joy...Anyhow, was getting ready to goto choir rehearsal and when up the two steps to the parking lot and somehow I fell. Not sure exactly how but I did...

Went on to choir rehearsal anyway, despite that pain in my shoulder and forearm on the left. Pain got worse through rehearsal and I really could not lift my arm or turn my forearm either. Long story short, went to ER..spent there hours there to find out I had a separated shoulder and had sprained and bruised the forearm area to the bone..Fun Fun..

Now, I am in a sling and out of work the next few days...Will ask my neighbors to take my trash to the curb for me, cause I cannot do it.

Well..would write more, but the Hydrocodone and Benadryl are kicking in..


Night everyon